you took my part.

Pimpage

Sun, 30 Aug 2009 01:33:05 GMT

voicematesAre you a huge JaeSu fan? Are you all game for writing and posting fic for contests and challenges and of course, most importantly, feedback?

Join voicematesto x-post your slashy goodness not just for contests but also whenever. The moderators are extremely friendly and can be pm-ed for anything, anytime. We're committed to making our community a fun place for all you hyper fans to squee, fic, meet other fellow JaeSu fans and just post about anything related to JaeSu. Encourage the slashiness, the nightmates expect it! :)))

Tue, 14 Jul 2009 08:50:56 GMT

purplehaze_33 → scarletpeonies

You're welcome to add me there if you're on this f-list and want to but its completely locked. This journal is only for modding my comms and all the old work now. Fiction remains public and I'm out for now.

Peace out,
Thea :)

Moths and Butterflies Part 12 [Final]

Thu, 02 Jul 2009 03:24:57 GMT

Moths and Butterflies, JaeSu, YooSu, JaeChun, JaeSuChun.

Genre: Romance, Angst, Lemon

Overall Rating: R

best friends. that's it; jaejoong is not in love or any of that sappy shit. he'll fuck just about anyone and get a blowjob from any random stranger, relationships be damned. he's not fucking the same guy twice or kissing them, there's no such thing as making love in his dictionary---The Butterfly.

best friends. that's it; junsu does not believe in people. they use him, fuck him and then leave him. jaejoong protecting him or not wanting him to be in a relationship has nothing to with love, okay? he hardly takes a chance on life and when he does, he ends up hurting and a litle more cynical--The Moth

what happens when a random guy that junsu has a one-night-stand with, starts falling in love with him? why does jaejoong care a little too much now? and who does junsu really love?

the story of two men, who learn almost too late in their lives, about a little something called love.

A/N: So...this is it. :3, Shoutouts go to Em, Belle, Kay, Cori, Lineand Angel. And everyone else who enjoyed reading this piece. i ♥ you all. :), 2, 874 words is this final part! XD

How is it possible to look at a sweet, sweet face that was all yours for two months and just say goodbye? Does it even have to be goodbye?

SPAMMING, DON'T GIVE A SHIT, XDDDD

Wed, 01 Jul 2009 03:22:54 GMT

Gara Gara Go!! by Big Bang

SAY B-I-G TO THE BANG

seungri. ♥:)))

hey boys, we're all waiting for the kissy-kissy-

Sat, 27 Jun 2009 17:07:21 GMT

dear jaejoong and junsu,

just get on with the kissing already, thank you very much.

lots of fangirling love,
thea

for itsplashes, JaeSu Picspam! :))

Thu, 25 Jun 2009 22:49:08 GMT

because Belle was whining about no JaeSu or Junsu pictures. ♥! :), so i decided to pull out pictures from my massive JaeSu folder which i don't update that often but hey, i'm sure you'll find some here that you haven't seen before. sjbdckjsbdc i hopeee.

you better be doing some serious right-clicking because i've slaved over this for you. :3

pictures are from different years and this post is massive; bewareeee. ;___;

NO HOTLINKING, THAG YOU VERY BUCH. 8]]]

Energizer Bunny! *_*

Giffy-Gifs to make your compu cry! 8]]

Hey, Dorks! 8D...Sexshi Dorks....:')

aaand:

hope you found something to add to your collection, Belleee jnksjdnsdjnc ;_;

Dawn in the Valley

Thu, 18 Jun 2009 01:27:08 GMT

Dawn in the Valley

→ Jaesu, PG
→ Angst, Romance, Oneshot
→ 3,086 w. O_O

Junsu is scared of the Monsters, thinks his voice is ugly and ends up jumping. Jaejoong ends up saving him.

A/N: For in_vazn, prompt table #05, 07. Poppy-Imagination, Oblivion, Eternal Sleep.

This has no graphic scenes and contains only minor swearing. :)), typos are most likely to be there, feel free to poiiint them out! ^_^

for boojaesubabe because mari made me love JaeSu first. :3

"Aren't you going to ask me my name?"

"The minute you tell me your name, I'm involved whether you like it or not," Jaejoong took another deep drag, watching the boy from the corner of his eyes.

mmm, so. i'm really happy with this fic; one of the few that i actually am fond of. got a strong mental image of jaejoong throwing stones at junsu's window. that's what really set this fic off, haha. plus, it is 3000+ words which makes me happyface even more. 8D

i have never been able to write a fic that maxed 2000 words without getting irritable. this one just made me open google docs and type, type, type for three hours straight. o.o

plus, this is for the flower prompt table at in_vazn that caught my eye. and for Mari because she's awesome and fierce like that. :3, ilu bb.

hope u guys enjoy this one~

Mon, 15 Jun 2009 15:25:00 GMT

so i'm almost done with my essay, (almost! ;_;) and i decided that i could do another one of these posts.

give me a prompt. it could be lyrics from a song or just a single word. throw whatever you like at me and i'll try to write a JaeSu/YunJae/JaeHo drabble for you. 8D, oh and specify which pairing you want!

open to first six people who get here. ♥:)

those who've requested: wep_15, xiahwase, cmplctd, omoxiya, yoosu_sarang and howlsgirl.

CLOSED

lovelight-teaser 2

Sun, 31 May 2009 22:56:47 GMT

"are you scared?" asks changmin, running his fingers lightly through her hair, bending down to press moist, little kisses all over her forehead.

"a-a little," she mutters inaudibly. his hair is spiky and cut stylishly short. black leather jacket and immpossibly tight jeans make up the rest of his ensemble. she catches a whiff of his cologne-hugo boss mixed with sweat.

shim changmin is one tough guy to figure out. she cant understand what he's thinking. why he's making this so fucking hard for her.

"where is yunho?" she asks him firmly, pushing his hands away.

eyebrows raise. his indifferent expression has become controlled calm.

"the hell would i know, queenka?" changmin says lightly. "look boa, yunho does things and goes places even i, his boy dont know shit about. you should just worry about keeping your perfect image, okay? do you know what happens if the office actually checks their school surveillance tapes this week?"

panic. it starts somewhere in her chest and ends up being bile in her throat that she has to fight to keep down. knees start shaking. his face softens. hands rub boa's back in soothing circles.

"breathe, you fool," changmin breathes on her lips. "dont worry; i bribed the cop monitoring the cameras. there's nothing except yunho and you coming out of that fucking closet. nothing else. at the worst, if that shit got to the main office, you'd only be suspended. see, you're still cool, okay? still queenka, baby."

"why'd you do that?" boa asks him slowly, calmed down by now. "yunho doesnt give shit about getting suspended."

mouth twists. "yeah," changmin says thoughtfully. "but i know you do."

8DDD

Fri, 29 May 2009 02:44:07 GMT

wibbling. no cut because you need to see and wibble too. *______*, ♥

well. XD

Wed, 13 May 2009 23:14:54 GMT

go check my profile.

i have tried in vain to resist. but yesung just wins in the end, huh.

crying, i cant find ANY yesung layouts. T_T

*_______________*.

Pimpage! ^_^

Wed, 13 May 2009 05:34:46 GMT

dbsk_gen dbsk_gen dbsk_gen dbsk_gen

this is a community solely for those of you who want to read and write more of friendship/general fic. ♥:)

if you join up there, tell me if you need an author's tag. please comment on the rules-post. ;D

:3, thea

Tue, 28 Apr 2009 00:24:18 GMT

tomorrow is battle. >.<

done reviewing, going through exam papers, re-reviewing at the speed of light, this exam should. be. fine.

my cheeks are flushed and wow-am i nervous. this exam-i have to do good on it! ^^

Moths and Butterflies-Chrysalis

Sun, 19 Apr 2009 18:59:22 GMT

Moths and Butterflies, JaeSu, YooSu, JaeChun, JaeSuChun.

Genre: Romance, Angst, Lemon

Overall Rating: R

best friends. that's it; jaejoong is not in love or any of that sappy shit. he'll fuck just about anyone and get a blowjob from any random stranger, relationships be damned. he's not fucking the same guy twice or kissing them, there's no such thing as making love in his dictionary---The Butterfly.

best friends. that's it; junsu does not believe in people. they use him, fuck him and then leave him. jaejoong protecting him or not wanting him to be in a relationship has nothing to with love, okay? he hardly takes a chance on life and when he does, he ends up hurting and a litle more cynical--The Moth

what happens when a random guy that junsu has a one-night-stand with, starts falling in love with him? why does jaejoong care a little too much now? and who does junsu really love?

the story of two men, who learn almost too late in their lives, about a little something called love.

A/N: I know its been ages. But the story is so close to ending. so pleasepleaseplease leave a comment if you're still following this? ;__: really-thank you for your patience! :)

dedication/ request: for sumi/darknessgryphonas always♥~
poster by katie/bangable. :3

Part o1. || Part o2. || Part o3. || Part o4. || Part o5. || Part o6. || Extra Verse o1. || Part o7. || Part o8. || Extra Verse o2. || and we were falling, falling, falling- || distorted fantasies of mine- || and i want to spread my wings- ||now i look at things with a different perspective-||a stomach full of lies is what you fed me with- || Part 09 ||when we were young- || Part 10 ||Part 11

Chrysalis

Junsu lies curled up to him, warm and peaceful, lips parted and the older man smiles, dropping a kiss on his forehead.

~~

He wakes up to the feeling of lips littering kisses all over his pliant, willing frame. Stripped of clothes and entirely nude, he instinctively wraps arms around pale neck, moaning softly.

~~

I love you-I love you-I love you is said sleepily. Jaejoong smiles sweetly, enjoying his lover like this-half-awake. He pumps the younger man’s length, firm yet tortuously gentle. Eyes open suddenly and Junsu is making delightful mewling sounds, full of appreciation. Jaejoong purrs in contentment-he likes how he is Junsu’s sole attention at the moment.

~~

Wet finger penetrates him and he leans upward to peck Jaejoong on the nose, whispering-good morning, how was your night?-teasing and happy. Jaejoong adds in a second finger, crooks them slightly and eyes darken when Junsu jerks his hips upward, replying rather hoarsely-I had a dream.

~~

(There were moths and butterflies emerging out of their cocoon-beautiful, stretching out their wings, taking flight and escaping their chrysalis. It was a dream about us.)

I would never hurt you is whispered in his ear and he moans out his assent. He would give this man anything he wants. Jaejoong is his love, his life and most importantly-his strength.

Hot, sucking kisses are placed all over his stomach. Jaejoong is paying special attention to the soft skin, plunging his tongue right in-his navel is a sweet spot-a secret Jaejoong is thoroughly abusing in the most delightful manner.

I would give you anything-he gasps, throwing his head back and whimpering incoherently.

You don’t have to ask, just take me.

(I’ve always wanted to do this whenever you came crawling into my bed.

I’ve always wanted you to do this to me, baby.)

Jaejoong is sliding in, slow and careful. His grip on the bed sheets tighten. The older man is loving and attentive-yet lust burns, naked and wanton and he reciprocates, palming Jaejoong’s cheeks and kissing him-sweet and utterly obscene.

~~

Hips rock upward, taking him in and tightening around him. Jaejoong groans in increasing desperation, staring at Junsu-sensual and erotic-lips chanting his name repeatedly and begging for more. How he’s kept his desires reigned in for so long-how Junsu has done it-how have they done it to each other-how, how, how, how-

I love you so much, baby.

~~

Jaejoong lights up and Junsu watches him intently. The bed sheets are dirty and their bodies are sweaty-they don’t care.

Suddenly Junsu straddles his waist; snatching his cigarette and taking a deep drag. The older man grins, parting his lips and letting Junsu exhale in his mouth.

“I like it like this,” he murmurs, voice breathy and inviting. “Could get easily addicted.”

Junsu is too busy, stroking him back to full hardness and alternating between smoking and kissing. Jaejoong prepares him lazily, slicking his entrance maddeningly slow and lets Junsu share the cigarette with him.

~~

When Junsu comes again, his hips tighten hard around his lover and Jaejoong looses it-coming hard and messy, in him. Semen leaks down his inner thighs and the older man falls on top of him, panting.

Jaejoong kisses him like there’s nothing else in the world he cares about; nobody else he’d rather devote his time to. He reciprocates like the world is going to end.

~~

(What did they tell you?

Who?

Hah, hah-the moths and butterflies-more, please, more-

We kiss because we trust.)

a one-way street of desire (3b/3) completed

Sun, 12 Apr 2009 17:34:32 GMT

a one-way street of desire, JaeHo, lemon, kink.

Overall Rating: NC-17

lust. n.

[1] Intense or unrestrained sexual craving.

Kim Jaejoong, freelance writer wants nothing more than Jung Yunho, defense attorney, in his bed, splayed out on his sheets, begging for him, begging to be fucked, needy and hot, beautiful just like that. It's called a one-way street of desire. But would Yunho want him just as bad?

Warnings: voyeurism, frotteurism, lemon. this is not a warning but i do think you should be informed that Jaejoong is more of the dominant here.

A/N: its done. i know this took me ages and i'm reallyreally sorry for the long wait, guys! hope y'all enjoyed this series and if you were following it, do leave me a small comment or smiley-face? it would mean a lot; this is my first series all completed! :D

Previous parts can be read by using this tag . Posted directly to my own journal because that's where this baby was started. XDD

He opens the door and almost immediately, Jaejoong swoops in for a hard kiss, crushing his lips onto Yunho’s. The lawyer smirks when he is pinned against his front door and Jaejoong pulls back to look into his eyes.

“Where is the fucking disc?” he rasps, but Yunho simply shrugs, pushing the shorter man off him, ambling off into the kitchen.

“Do you want dinner, Kim-sshi?” Yunho turns back to ask, eyes innocent and wide. “Or would you just like to drink with me?”

The older man follows him and leans against the kitchen counter. He is wearing the same black wife-beater and blue jeans, along with a white dress shirt left unbuttoned. Yunho licks his lips unconsciously. He likes what he is seeing and never has he taken a wild risk his whole life until Jaejoong arrived like a hurricane. The man is beautiful and quite simply to put it-sexual. It is also something Yunho is having great pleasure discovering himself. Never in his life, had he ever felt like that. But Jaejoong-the man makes him want to let loose of inhibitions and just be what he really wants-wild and wanton.

Jaejoong is watching him putter around with heated eyes. Of course, he knows why; Yunho is wearing nothing but a silk-white bathrobe and black briefs underneath. He smirks as he pours red wine into two crystal glasses and allows Jaejoong a nice view of his chest, nipples taut against the silk. Jaejoong’s pants are slightly tented and this makes Yunho smile smugly.

“Jaejoong,” Yunho purrs, sidling up to him and offering a glass of wine. “Drink up, okay. I have a bottle and you must tell me about yourself. Unless well, you just wanted-all along-”

Lips are pink and plump; Yunho bites the inside of his cheek. Shit, he wants this man so bad right now. But he has to know-what has this beautiful man been tailing him so determinedly for? His body or something-more?

Jaejoong’s eyes are soft and dark, filled with an intense emotion Yunho cannot exactly fathom. “Right now,” he says, taking the glass and brushing his fingers deliberately against Yunho’s. “I don’t feel like talking. This is a conversation that you’re asking for and I’m perfectly willing to have one with you but it’s for later. Many conversations, I hope.”

The younger man is trapped between the counter and Jaejoong. The older man pounces on him, running his arms down Yunho’s sides, stroking gently. “Right now, I want to be inside this tight body,” he whispers silkily. “You’re such a tease, Yunho. Waiting for me because you knew I’d come, didn’t you, wearing nothing underneath. How hot are you for me, huh?”

“Very,” Yunho says brokenly. “I won’t tell you what I did with the disc. You can fuck me grand and maybe then; I might say.”

“Deal,” Jaejoong murmurs, untying his robe and rubbing his stomach. Eyes eat him up, hands run all over his skin, flushed and wanting. Yunho sighs and closes his eyes; relaxing into the firm touch. Jaejoong rubs his nape, playing with his hair and he melts promptly.

“Let’s take this to the bedroom,” He hears himself saying huskily. Jaejoong nods and Yunho leads him by the hand. They shut the door and it is now-

Yunho is backed towards his bed slowly. He smiles; watching Jaejoong remove his dress-shirt. Hands are lifted to remove his wife-beater and Yunho willingly assists, feather-light touches over pale, sculpted chest. With one light shove, he falls with a light oomph! on his bed and Jaejoong hovers over him, shirtless, clad only in his jeans that are hanging low on his waist now.

What follows is the most erotic and tortuous experience Yunho has ever had. Jaejoong sucks his toes lightly, all the time, looking up at him with those pretty, doe eyes. Nibbles and licks all over his inner thighs, alternating with soft, sucking kisses. His navel is teased delightfully and length stands full at attention now. Nipples are tongued viciously and it makes Yunho release a heartfelt groan; those plump lips wrapped around each taut nipple sucking like there’s no tomorrow.

Jaejoong buries his face in Yunho’s neck. “I’ve wanted to do this for so long,” he says, voice sounding so aching and wanting, the younger man flushes. “Been dreaming of this and now-here we are.”

Yunho trembles. “Here we are indeed.” he says softly and fumbles under his pillow. The tube is handed and Jaejoong takes it with shaking fingers. Yunho can see the slight insecurity, the need to make this last and he cups Jaejoong’s face.

“I trust you to make this amazing,” he says hotly. “You know you can, just do whatever you want with me. I’m here and willing. Touch me, Jaejoong. Please.”

The heated words give confidence. Then suddenly Jaejoong pulls his briefs off and yanks his jeans and boxers down. Yunho buries his flushed face in the pillow. His legs are spread apart and Jaejoong is now in between, stretching him with wet fingers.

“Look at me,” Jaejoong hisses.

He looks.

The rest of it is something Yunho hardly remembers. He thinks he got pounded viciously into the bed and slammed into the headboard. He thinks he touched himself and made Jaejoong groan in desperation. He thinks he came rather hard, all over Jaejoong’s stomach and chest.

All he remembers are those pretty, doe eyes that held him captive and made everything blur into a funny haze until he got caught up in the emotion. He thinks Jaejoong was trying to desperately tell him something.

When Jaejoong falls next to his side, panting rather hard, he reaches out and cups his cheek. The older man pulls him in for a warm embrace, petting his sweaty hair and nuzzling his nose.

“I cut it up into little pieces,” Yunho tells him softly. “Put it out in the trash. I promise I made no copies. Because it’s not a one-way street anymore, Jaejoong-ah. Its not.”

Tears are running down the older man’s cheeks. He can see the relief and warmth. He can see what it is that Jaejoong wants.

“Let’s talk now. But first,” Jaejoong says softly. “I want to ask you something.”

“What is it?” Yunho smiles.

“W-will-will you have dinner with me tomorrow?”

Yunho laughs. He laughs so hard his body shakes and Jaejoong covers his mouth with his hand, looking at him with fever-bright eyes.

He thinks the older man is laughing too.

getting lazy-

Sat, 28 Mar 2009 17:33:45 GMT

ughhh, i hate x-posting.

-feels lazy-

i'm onto you

Thu, 26 Mar 2009 05:33:06 GMT

(i'm so happy right now, i could cry.

i'm smiling, smiling, smiling-

you just stand there and look pretty but

i'm on to you.

i know your secret.

its your silly, little smile, words unspoken but-)

take a chance, yunho had told him once. it sounded whimsical and strange, full of half-riddles. jaejoong wondered when his best friend started sounding like him. he wanted to know what it would feel like to free-fall, small veiny hands interlaced with his own. no landing, no runway, just flying.

he sits out, late at night, working on the lyrics for a new song. the ending wont come and he stabs at the sheet with his pencil, doodling absent-mindedly. he falls asleep, slouching in the armchair on the balcony, chilled to the bone.

when he gets up, the crumpled sheet of paper is lying under a paperweight on the floor to prevent the wind from stealing his words. a white blanket covers him securely. the smell of freshly-brewed coffee makes him smile.

when he peers to see his lyrics, its completed. the last two lines are untidily filled in.

(crinkled eyes say it all.

i'm onto you.)

junsu pours steaming black coffee into five mugs. two sugar cubes with milk, plain, plain, one sugar cube with milk, plain. it never changes.

jaejoong reaches out timidly and covers the younger man's hand. take a chance, yunho said.

junsu smiles softly, palming his cheek and leaning in to nuzzle his nose.

i'm onto you, he whispers, like its a secret. its not because the blush on jaejoong's cheeks gives it all away. they pull apart, sip their coffee and shoot each other surreptitious looks the whole day.

i'm onto you.

Tue, 10 Mar 2009 02:23:48 GMT

i'm not going to lie and pretend like i dont give a shit.

he's coming in june/july. was trying my best not to count down the days but i am. aghh. -.-

~~

yaoi is again starting to make me chafe for something different.

anyone got good recs from soompi? what are you guys currently reading there? i wanna read some het too. *__*

i do have a jaeyin/suyin/jaeboa bias. and yunho/boa. omg, i havent read yunho/boa in aaages! ;___;

i've read almost everything from kawaki and kamikakushi. :((((

any other osmsauce authors? *_*

this is my lazing week so that's why i'm asking. if anyone's got some good long!fics from soompi to rec, please do share! i need them all for my epic het recommendations list that i'm planning to make anyway. :DDD

[ HIATUS ]

Sat, 21 Feb 2009 05:22:47 GMT

Thea asked me to do this for her~

Until further notice, Thea is on hiatus. She wants to concentrate on her exam (and we all know how the muses tend to harass her;)), so she has asked for her journal to be temporarily hijacked, lol. She will not receive any comments or message from lj until she tells me to give it back to her.

Let us all wish her good luck on her exam, and a speedy return, yes? ^_^

And, just in case you guys are worried, or thinking that this was actually done w/o her permission, you can contact me: angel_9_lives.

((I didn't get to ask her if I should do that, but I figured she wouldn't want you guys to worry too much, so...um..yeah:S -THEA: if you see this later, let me know if I should change anything, ok? and I'm making the same post on both journals-))

~Angel

New Writing Comm! :))

Thu, 12 Feb 2009 03:38:45 GMT

lyrical_chaos

yeah, that was supposed to be my secret writing journal and probably some of you read the excuses!homin verse that i started working on in that journal.

everything will be transferred there gradually.

for now i'm only going to move Moths and Butterflies there. As well as my jaeho series: A one-way street of desire.

Showstoppers and Wallflowers will be updated in my new community.

Um, i thiiink that's it. this way, i wont be so addicted to updating this journal like crazy.

and next week is completely off. i'll work on transferring everything.

whatever fic has not been transferred is still going to remain public on this journal so dont worry. :)

Showstoppers and Wallflowers-Prologue

Wed, 11 Feb 2009 14:59:07 GMT

Showstoppers and Wallflowers, HoMin [maiiiin focus XD], other pairings i cant reveal juust yet due to ongoing prequel.

This story is the sequel to my ongoing series Moths and Butterflies. You do not have to read that one. I recommend it because there are certain things I'm assuming that you already know. Changmin and Yunho have already been created in the prequel, so its up to you, whether you want to treat this as the sequel or another whole series altogether.

Jung Yunho-He's worked his ass off in the fashion industry, is the face of Zenith and smiles his charm all over you. Ruthless, gorgeous and utterly amoral--The Show-stopper.

Shim Changmin-He's a college drop-out, stuck with taking care of his disillusioned mother, working night shifts at a gay club and morning shifts at a diner. Cynical, tired and brilliant--The Wallflower.

One blowjob. That was all it was.

Until one blowjob leads to many other blowjobs.

Until Yunho starts getting way too interested in the younger man's personal life, much to Changmin's dislike.

Until one of them is going to have to forego pride and ego for the other.

Until limits get crossed and love starts spilling into the equation.

A story about finding yourself. finding peace. finding home in the unlikeliest of places.

A/N: turns out my jaesu muse is dead. switching to HoMin now for the mom'. <3

"You do understand what signing our contract entails, Jung-sshi," The associate with the colourless complexion and blank eyes wets lip nervously and Yunho smiles, wide and beautiful-

He's been waiting for this. Been waiting for the hands of success to finally reach out for and grab the contract. The contract that once he signs, all blasted fourteen pages, would make him the face of Zenith.

They might take this away from him. He needs this more than anything else. So Yunho skims through the pages, bored to tears with the highly technical language, so very clear and correct-

"Whatever," he murmurs, waving his hand lightly and quickly signing the heavy document with his untidy scrawl. "Just take the fucking thing. I want an office, though. And a five-bedroom apartment. Plus, a personal assistant."

"Those are fair requests, yes," The associate says quietly, not looking at him. "Congragulations Yunho-sshi. You're now officially the new face of Zenith."

Yunho leans his head back and smiles dreamily, excitement and a whole new sense of power filling him up inside-

I can do anything I want to do now. This is my dream, my goal, my ambition and its finally arrived. I'm living it.

---------------------------------------------------------

Changmin wants to puke. He wants to strangle this vile, old man's throat whose fingers are slipping under his briefs, cupping his ass and groping him roughly. Instead he arches his back and lets out a fake cry of pleasure

"When do you want to start, boy?" The owner murmurs huskily, parting his thighs and stretching him quickly.

"T-tomorrow," He gasps, trying not to let tears fill his eyes, trying not to let self-disgust swallow him up.

He wants this job. He doesnt need it. He wants this job.

"Them boys are gonna love you, kid," the owner rasps, entering him in quickly, starting the game far too soon.

He closes his eyes and tries not to think of Omma. He doesnt care about what she thinks. Doesnt give a flying fuck about what she'll think.

This is his life and he'll live it, exactly the way he wants to.

No one will fucking tell him how to live it.

"Be there at seven sharp, okay, kid?" The owner gasps and comes, messy and dirty, right between his thighs. "You got a lot to learn and get good at real fast."

Men are pathetic, he thinks afterward, lying in a daze on the carpetted floor, cum leaking down his thighs. Shake your hips a little, smile coyly and crook your little finger.

They'll just come to you, he thinks, swallowing his self-disgust down. That's why you should keep beckoning, Shim Changmin. Its probably the only thing you can use at the moment. Its the only thing you can use to your advantage.

So he gets up, bouncing back up, putting an extra swish of confidence and flightiness in his step.

You dont need anyone.

You only need yourself and your darn wits to keep on going.

the moths and butterflies sequel is-

Wed, 11 Feb 2009 04:13:12 GMT

Showstoppers and Wallflowers, HoMin [maiiiin focus XD], other pairings i cant reveal juust yet due to ongoing prequel.

Jung Yunho-He's worked his ass off in the fashion industry, is the face of Zenith and smiles his charm all over you. Ruthless, gorgeous and utterly amoral--The Show-stopper.

Shim Changmin-He's a college drop-out, stuck with taking care of his disillusioned mother, working night shifts at a gay club and morning shifts at a diner. Cynical, tired and brilliant--The Wallflower.

One night. That was all it was.

Until one night lead to many other nights.

Until Yunho starts getting way too interested in the younger man's personal life, much to Changmin's dislike.

Until one of them is going to have to forego pride and ego for the other.

Until limits get crossed and love starts spilling into the equation.

A story about finding yourself. finding peace. finding home in the unlikeliest of places.

perfect is not you and me (or us)

Tue, 10 Feb 2009 08:51:51 GMT

perfect is not you and me (or us), JaeMin, strange fluff.

rating: G

they're about to land in twenty minutes. jaejoong is tired and changmin wants to just sleep with him.

a/n: i miss my jaemin. that is all. <3

"sometimes," jaejoong murmurs, looking down fixedly at his clenched fingers. "sometimes we're not perfect."

changmin's eyes twitches at that and he says nothing for a while. his head rests on the older man's shoulder and he sighs, eyes wanting to droop shut but stubbornly remaining open. they'll be landing in half an hour. one hour of sound sleep does nothing to cure you of fatigue.

fatigue worms its way into your bones. it makes you sick and your limbs ache. sometimes your head gets real heavy but then next minute, you have to get ready so it goes away and you're a hyper ball of energy again.

so they are too, jaejoong and changmin, two incredibly tired guys who just want to collapse on crisp, white, unfamiliar sheets and just remain dead to the world.

"i think my eun-mi likes you," changmin whispers, smiling mischievously. "she keeps asking for your number."

the older man tenses for a bit but then long fingers curl reassuringly around his wrist so he relaxes. "ask her if she wants to be beaten up," jaejoong smirks and the younger man lets out a short guffaw of laughter.

"i want to come to your room, hyung," changmin asks hesitantly and jaejoong bites his lip. he looks around the aisle quickly and places a quick kiss on jaejoong's cheek, narrowly missing his mouth.

"i love you," min whispers sweetly. 'please-hyung-please?"

and jaejoong relents, resting his head on changmin's, trying not to worry so much before his eyes shut close again.

Tue, 10 Feb 2009 00:16:41 GMT

...i give up on ficlists.

listing my JaeSu pieces would be like spamming a page and its. too. obvious.

i am a very obvi. jaesu fangirl, dont need a ficlist to prove it now. -________-

i am trying versatility though! i really am: all the recent homin and jaeho.

but i just cant seem to write yoomin and minsu convincingly. -sobs-

minsu is sezyyy and playful. but idk. :(

...now recently, i've been craaaving ryoxkame and junnoxkame. also, where's my ryoxuchi at?!

je authors i totally rec:

tia_junan</lj> --- Cinders, Epiphany, Fall of the king [they're all amazing! <3]

i think i dont need to say anything about Ki. he's practically the reason why i started writing. i remember finishing all his series in one night, lol, i was so freaking hooked.

ashkt</lj> --- Threshold of Fear, Trigger, Natsu no Owari, Broken Sonnet

threshold is a twoshot. read it! even if you're not in the fandom, you should. its ryoxuchi. broken sonnet own my heart-its ryoxkame.

kamexkame</lj> --- Hold me, Thrill me, Kiss me, Kill me

ryoxkame. incoherency. erotic. sex. ryo being a douchebag. kame being all anoxeric and sluttayyy. amazing. *_____*

marlenem</lj> --- Trapped in the safety of a pseudo silk kimono

guhhhh. jsndcjsdnc;ksdjncd;ksjnc. keysmash here. akame btw. ;]

xaisu_kuriimux</lj> ---Spare Me

reallyreally cute. *_________*

soucieux</lj> ---A prelude to number six?

i love this one. its akame too. :)))

there are more but i'm recommending what i remember aka what stuck in my head from two years back. these authors-they write really good. *__*

miss you

Sun, 08 Feb 2009 04:30:36 GMT

miss you, AKame, romance+suggestive talk.

Overall rating: PG-13

i miss your body curled up to mine, keeping me warm, lips pressed against my chest and leg wedging itself between my thighs. i miss you real bad right now.

Dedication: for Ki! because i keep telling myself i'll write akame for him and i never get around to doing it, lol. plus, this was also inspired by the One Drop PV.

"so", jin murmurs, pulling a cigarette out and lighting up. "we havent really spoken in ages."

"that's because you're too busy, jin," kame retorts coolly, taking the cigarette offered. jin lights it for them and he inhales deeply, letting the smoke calm him down.

"c'mere," jin demands and kame bats his eyelashes, smiling infuriatingly and refusing to budge. he stays put, blinking innocently and grins when the older man growls in frustration, pulling him roughly to sit beside him.

they smoke in silence and jin rubs kame's wrist with his thumb repeatedly, smiling when the younger man closes his eyes and lets out a soft moan in appreciation.

"m-so tired," kame mutters, resting his head in the hollow of jin's neck. "shooting's driving me insane. save me, jin."

"tired too," jin smiles, face pale with fatigue. "hey, you know what? let's go get drunk after we wrap up, okay? then we'll go to my place-"

"-and fuck like bunnies?" kame smirks but doesnt protest, placing a soft kiss on jin's neck.

"we'll need to unwind," jin presses his lips near kame's mouth. "sex with you-is addicting. especially since-"

"-i've been topping more?" kame grins. "i'll let you have your way with me. and i'll do you in the shower later. how's that sound?"

"sounds like a plan," jin breathes on his lips, holding kame tightly, the younger man is so warm. "which we probably wont follow."

"either way," kame says softly. "it doesnt matter. i miss you right now."

"yeah, baby," jin agrees, exhaling smoke into the chilly night air. "it doesnt. and i miss you too, baby. miss you too."